103 days, 11 hours and 5 minutes...

.....until Christmas 2012!!!

Just sat with the girls and talked about Christmas

and Christmas shows. I really can't wait! Watching

Christmas movies and listening to 'all I want for

Christmas is you' and 'Last Christmas'...I want to go

ice skating with my girlfriend and watch the lights. 

I want to sit in the cold with gloves on and get warm

with a cup of hot chocolate. Mmmmmhh...

Taste the Rainbow!

So it's raining today. It's really that kind of Autumnish weather today! The

weather that I hate. Buuuut...it won't get me down. My mood is great 

today! I don't know why. But it's just lovely here. I feel like wearing water

proof boots and going out in the rain - jumping around in the water on the 

ground! Who wants to join me? Haha. 

Have it smashing out there people!

Here's some pictures to keep up your mood. 

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Thoughts on religion.

I haven't blogged in some time...wauw. But I haven't had anything

exciting to tell, other than stuff from my life and that I've begun

to write in my Diary. But just now I've begun to think about religion.

I'm sure that I'm not really a religious person, but I still wonder about

it. What is it that drives a person to rely so much on a 'God'. Something

so fictional that can't be proven. We don't have any documentation

that this 'God' ever did exist. Sure we have bibles, Korans and such

but that's not concrete documentation or evidence. Those stories were

told over and over and was at last written down on paper. 

Misunderstandings would've easily occurred in the constant repetition

of the stories. It's like the old saying. 'One feather easily becomes

ten hens'. So these stories might not even be trustworthy. But then

again. People always need beliefs to keep their faith in life going.

Any kind of belief. For some it's enough to believe in love. But for

others a religion is needed. To believe that someone created the world

just for us to be in it. That everything that happens is his will. That he

will decide where you go, what you do, when you die, what happens

to you, if you get sick or whatever. He decides everything. That 

one great person, who is mightier than us all. But I just cannot believe

that at all. I believe that everything we do has a meaning to it. Yes. I can't

really describe my beliefs, they are quite strange.But I'll try: imagine a family

tree. The log is the decisions your parents make for you and when you

start deciding for yourself, the log turns into branches. Those branches will

be the smaller decisions you make in life. But at some point the branches

will turn into twigs.  Those twigs are heavy choices. When you pick a

 twig/a choice you edit your own story and your own destiny. If you had

chosen another twig you might have ended up a different place. But in the

end you always end up in one place. The place you were always destined

to be. When you end up there? That depends on which choices you make.

And that ladies and gentlemen is my belief. I'm definitely no Christian, 

Muslim, Buddhist nor Jew. I don't know if I'm an Atheist. I just don't want

to put a label on it. Religion is not something that I want to get into, but I 

think it's an interesting topic and something I love to talk about. 

Well. Have a great night everyone!

Okay so this blog is dying out....

But you can follow my Tumblr, where I am very much active!

www.katjathordarson.tumblr.com

Photography is fun. 

Editing is even more fun.

People don't know what they want

until they have it in their possession

When they are about to lose it they

know how much they actually want it

And when they lose it they regret not 

taking better care of it while they could

Some want love

Some want friendships

Some want to sing

Some want to be free.

Some want somebody to hold on to.

Some want a long and happy life.

Some want to dance.

Some want sexual attraction.

Some want piercings.

Some want intensity.

Some want a new car.

Some want a huge collection.

Some want to travel.

Some want to see Paris.

Some want to go to New York.

Some just wants to be alone.

Some wants a smoke.

Some just wants to be fixed.

Some wants knowledge.

Some want what once was back.

And some just wants to fly away.

I'm neglecting this blog so bad.

Yeah, I know. But I just don't feel like blogging these days...even though a lot of

drama went down last week, I really didn't feel like sharing it...and I still don't.

It hurts too much to do so. Yup, drama'rama. But the drama was kind of loosened

up when Nina came this Friday. She was part of the drama (even though it was

completely 'my fault' the drama occurred - even though it was also another's fault

but this person is unknowing of her fault, so to say). I haven't cried as much as I

did last Wednesday in a long time...probably since July last year. At that time it was 

because of an enormous argument with the unknowing person. This time it was fear

of losing the girl, I love more than anything. I was so scared. Cried for twenty

minutes...then Rachel came up...I cried for ten minutes more. And I almost cried

again when I cammed with Nina later that night. So you can say that it has been a

quite dramatic week for me, last week. This drama was also the thing that led me

to decide to stop at my internship and go back to my school. I wasn't dedicated at 

what I did because of what was going on, and I wasn't sure I would be next week 

either. Even though I completely loved my internship! Well...Nina came Friday 

and we went to Open By Night in Odense city. It was nice. Rikke came along which

also was nice. I like Rikke, despite everything. Nina and I then went to a bar with

Rachel and her sisters and Jannie, but we went home early, 'cause Ninas foot was

hurting very badly and on the way home she couldn't even walk! All in all the weekend

ended up being really great and I once again got confirmed that it is really Nina, whom I

love and want to spent my time (possibly even my life) with. We may not have a lot of 

things in common and we may have our small issues. We may be different. But don't 

the wise always say 'differences meet'? I think they do...I love her. And I just want to

be with her, no matter what. This incident will be over soon and my mind will be 

completely clear. She is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Ever. I

realize this now. I knew it before, but I really just realized it now as I sit here writing

it down. She brings out the happy me. The girl who is in love. The girl who will do anything

for others. This life-loving girl, who can see the positive in almost everything. Only one

person has been able to make that girl come out, before. That person was the unknowing

one in this blog-post. She made me see everything in a bright light too. But there were

just so many bad things mixed with the bright light. Well, love is blind, is it not? I trust

that after everything Nina and I has been through the last a month and a half, we can get

by in any given situation. She is my light, my angel. And if I lost her...I wouldn't know 

how to react. Maybe I would continue the same mess, as I was doing, before I met her?

Maybe I would try and fall back with the unknowing one? No. I wouldn't fall back with

her. Maybe I would just shut off any kind of emotions. I think that would be mostly what

I would do. I would just shut down. Be ice-cold. But thank god that's not how it is! I

am in love and she is with me and I can't be grateful enough for that!! 

Love.

This tiny delicate thing

I hold it in my hand

This huge delicate thing

Is more than I can stand

This lovely delicate thing

Is something which I must care

This terrifying delicate thing

Is something that I have to bare

This amazing delicate thing

Is essential to my soul

This hurting delicate thing

Can be blacker than the blackest coal

This wonderful delicate thing

I could never live without

This amazing delicate thing

I would never doubt

Thin great delicate thing

I hide in my glove

This wondering delicate thing

Is the thing we all know as love

Tina Dicow

Thank god, you always help me get back on track!

I love her music, her voice and her lyrics. They're 

so meaningful. Especially to me. It makes me calm 

down and allows me to think more clearly. This is 

something, which I am in great need of right now.